SLEEPLESS NIGHT~

It is currently 5am in the morning right now and although I am kind of sleepy, I do not want to retire to bed. I don't know, Spring Quarter didn't start off well and since then, it's just not getting any better. At this moment of time, emotions are just piling up in me.

The birds are out chirping and I am sitting at my desk, in the semi dark typing about random things in my blog which you are reading. My suitemates have all gone to bed so I am the only one awake.

I was researching about making a laptop bag earlier but then I realized I need to buy padding so I guess I need to postpone it till later. I really want to make one as soon as possible though becasue even though I don't take my laptop to class, I think it will be a fun project to work on.

I need to get through my Chemistry midterm first though, which is on the coming Tuesday night so I need to make sure I do REALLY REALLY well in it if I want to get a good grade in the class. My grades sucks at the moment and if I don't do better I'm really scared I will be kick out of school! Housing is also coming up and i STILL don't know where I will be living next year yet.

Another thing on my mind is Rome. I want to go but I still have not applied for my VISA yet and if I do not get on it soon, I'm really scared I will not be able to go in the end...there is also some material which I need to turn into the office which is due on the 15th. The thing is, one of those items is the plane ticket which I have not yet bought but I do not even know if I will be able to go to Rome so I do not know if I should even be buying my tickets yet. What if I don't get my VISA but bought tickets already?

At this point, I am just really missing all my family and friends from all over the world. Memories are really a beautiful thing but at the same time, it can also make you sad. My mom recieved the flowers I ordered for her yesterday and she called back crying becasue she did not expected anything like it which made me cry and realize how much I miss her. My dad also recently went back to Taiwan and I haven't talked to him much either since he's been back. :'(

On a happy note though, other than having to study my ass off this weekend, I will be going to the American Appeal Rumage Sale so we will see what thing I will buy/not buy from there. It will be my first so I do not even know what they have. I am pretty excited, except, if I don't sleep, I have a feeling I will be pretty tired tomorrow and fall asleep in the pile of clothes or something.

Yup, I am probably not making sense right now but it is okay..I am still not TOO sure what I am suppose to write in a blog so this will have to do. haha sorry but you guys have to bear with me here. Alright, I shall take a nap on my desk now, the sun is kind of out. WOW, I really am just a big blob of FAIL!

LOL i was going to put pictures up but then I decided against it XD

ps. I don't know why the blog looks the way it does but I could not separate my sentences...